missing YOU so badly...

I don't know why? but i still think of you
it's really driving me crazy..
it's been a month since we last talk
i have finally decided to say goodbye
i no longer communicate with you,i shut down my phone
no text, no calls not even emails
i thought i will no longer think of you
but i was wrong...
because i really,really,really, miss you
when i finally decided to let you go
i know i'm doing the right thing
but i didn't expect it will be this painful
it hurts me a lot and i can't do anything
i guess i just have to endure the pain
time heall all wounds...

I'LL be over YOU!

i have finally said... GOODBYE!

there's no easy way to let go of something
i know will never happen again..
but i will face the world around me
strong enough to let you go..
i'm aware that you only come into my life for awhile,
and time will come... i have to give you up
then that's the end of it!
i cry for the times i thought i had you..
thank you..
for the love and the pain
the pain.. that i will always remember
one day, i can finally say i'm over you

It'S 2010

it's already 2010
i haven't write for a very long time,
maybe because i have nothing new to share...
i haven't changed a bit, still in the shadow of the past
my mind, heart and everything still belongs to him ouch!
i have said goodbye a couple of times,
too many that i can no longer remember
i really can't believe it!
he has already move on with his life.. back to normal
maybe he no longer think of me, no longer miss me
we still communicate sometime through emails
and i can tell he's ok living his life with out me around
maybe i should do the same!
now is the right time to face the reality... that we will never be together
cruelty of life... cruelty of falling in love
at the wrong person, at the wrong time!