missing YOU so badly...

I don't know why? but i still think of you
it's really driving me crazy..
it's been a month since we last talk
i have finally decided to say goodbye
i no longer communicate with you,i shut down my phone
no text, no calls not even emails
i thought i will no longer think of you
but i was wrong...
because i really,really,really, miss you
when i finally decided to let you go
i know i'm doing the right thing
but i didn't expect it will be this painful
it hurts me a lot and i can't do anything
i guess i just have to endure the pain
time heall all wounds...

I'LL be over YOU!

i have finally said... GOODBYE!

there's no easy way to let go of something
i know will never happen again..
but i will face the world around me
strong enough to let you go..
i'm aware that you only come into my life for awhile,
and time will come... i have to give you up
then that's the end of it!
i cry for the times i thought i had you..
thank you..
for the love and the pain
the pain.. that i will always remember
one day, i can finally say i'm over you

It'S 2010

it's already 2010
i haven't write for a very long time,
maybe because i have nothing new to share...
i haven't changed a bit, still in the shadow of the past
my mind, heart and everything still belongs to him ouch!
i have said goodbye a couple of times,
too many that i can no longer remember
i really can't believe it!
he has already move on with his life.. back to normal
maybe he no longer think of me, no longer miss me
we still communicate sometime through emails
and i can tell he's ok living his life with out me around
maybe i should do the same!
now is the right time to face the reality... that we will never be together
cruelty of life... cruelty of falling in love
at the wrong person, at the wrong time!

LoVe... my final words

If I could ask the Lord for one thing,
before my time is gone
One prayer to be answered,
before I must move on
It would be to be loved by you,
be held close to your heart
To touch your life in a special way,
before we two must apart

LoVe...

i’d do anything not to miss u…
but it’s my fate to love and not have u…
more than that not being able to get over u...

bye...LOVE!

finally it ended...

thanks!

for letting me go...


I still miss you…
But not like I did before. The intense aching I felt, Isn’t there anymore.
I still whisper your name…
Not as often as I used to. Now it may be once, Before the day is through.
I still hear your voice…
Replaying in my mind. But it’s fading now, Soon silence I will find.
I still long for you…
To feel your touch. But it’s not like before, I don’t dream it as much.
I still think about you…
And wonder how you are. But my feelings have changed, And they don’t go as far.
I still feel you sometimes…
Maybe you’re thinking of me? Or maybe it’s just a little memory, Of how it used to be.
I still love you…
But it’s just not as strong. Because I’m letting you go now, So we can both move on.
You still have a piece of my heart..
Because I always felt you here. Now, I’m hoping and praying,That,
that too, will quickly disappear.
This will be my last goodbye...
I’ve nothing else to say.Everything I felt for you,Can now just fade away


love,
I guess I was wrong when I thought that were destined to be together, that you are my destiny. I know you will always love her and you will always be with her no matter what. She's your present and your future. Goodluck! I just wanna thank you for the time you spent with me, for lending an ear,for the advices you gave.You really help me a lot. TAKE CARE and GOD BLESS!

"Finally, I see that my happiness doesn't mean having you. My happiness comes from your happiness. And if you can be happy without me, then I can be happy without you."

I'M happy...

I'M HAPPY....

Nothing beats the happiness i'm feeling right now and I know it's all because of you. I try to let you go, I try everything to ignore this feeling... I just can't. Having you around makes my day complete. You really make me happy,make me laugh . I was hoping it wouldn't end. But I know it will, cause I know I can't have you. You're not mine and will never be mine. Let's just say ....

Enjoy it while it last!

love,

i wish i could keep you forever....

maybe were destined to be together....

maybe you're my DESTINY...

maybe?

falling in LOVE...

LOVE?

A four letter word but really hard to define. I fell in love once I thought it will never end,but I was wrong.It ended unexpectedly... it hurts a lot. At first I couldn't believe it,but i have to accept the fact that he's already gone. Memories still linger on my mind.The things we do.The places we've been.The moments of unending happiness... I thought I'll die when I decided to set him free,I almost did.It's been a year and a half now since we part ways. And I made it... I already move on, no not m0ving on but instead I step forward. Away from the memories of the past. I never knew after all what had happened LOVE would still come along.Yes, it did...
I'm falling in love the second time around. But I'm afraid.... afraid I might be falling in love with a wrong person. How could I possibly fall in love with someone. I know I can never have. Someone who already belong to someone. Stupid I guess....
My friends once told me letting go is the answer. How can I let him go if he's all I ever wanted? Is it really destiny that brings us together? a playful destiny.I don't know what to do...
Sometimes I don't wanna think about it. As long as I'm happy having him around. I don't care what happens next. I don't even care what the future brings.But I'm scared... scared that one day when I wake up he's gone, because I knew all along he's not mine,and will never be mine. HOPELESS...

A Prayer...

I couldn't sleep...

I don't know why I couldn't sleep.It seems like I'm too tired but I couldn't find a way to fall a sleep.I was thinking of something I really don't know.Something is bothering me and yet I don't know what it is? It's a weird feeling... A strange one.How can I be bothered by something I don't know? I never felt this way before and I couldn't get it why I'm feeling it right now.It's like a heavy burden inside my mind,a thousand heartaches.That I needed to cry on to surpass this feeling.I keep my eyes closed,then I started praying...
Holy Spirit; thou who make see everything and show me the way to reach my ideal.You who give me the divine gift to forgive and forget the wrong that is done to me and who are in all instances of my life with me.I, in this short prayer want to thank you for everything and confirm once more that I never want to be seperated from you no matter how great the material desires may be.I want to be with you and my loved ones in your perpetual glory Amen..

I still believe I can only find the peace of mind I've been longing with him and through him.